the struggles i have had with mental health and learning to be open about them have lead me to beautiful unexpected connections and friendships and love.
I had long periods of staying in bed and not showing up to work but I didn't know that was depression. I had panic attacks on the tube but I didn't know that was anxiety.
Unemptied bin bags on the floor in the kitchen, every plate and glass dirty, drinking water with my hands like it's a cup.
Living with anxiety is about intimately learning when to trust oneself.
Incongruousness is everything that late capitalism celebrates. I never asked to be marketable.
Giving someone head rarely led to anything more than a seen-but-not-replied-to-iMessage.
My mum always said she would reincarnate into a cat, so I find myself speaking to stray animals a lot.
I've been described as a 'nurturer', meaning I am more concerned in making sure everyone around me is as happy as they can be, without thinking of the effect it will have on me.
I can't make decisions, I'm too lazy, anxious or afraid and i'm quite old and suddenly I'm back in bed
sheer admin - prescriptions, appointments, insurance, side effects, diets and exercise.
I pretend to my uber drivers I'm the person I'd like to be in five years
...that time I bet all of my wage packet on the Grand National with absolutely no rewards, so I tried to get a Wonga loan and it was rejected because EE blacklisted me.
I’m 23 and I’m only just coming to terms with the fact that I don’t have to be a complete ice queen on the outside as I fall apart on the inside.
But really I think the best thought to cling on to is: stop beating yourself up about everything.
you have to brush your teeth
I can remember exactly how it started. I was 14 years old, clinically depressed, had excessive amounts of body hair and a tash that a prepubescent teenager could only dream of.
It's cool to have a sense of humour about it. It doesn't mean you're being flippant. Having said that, if someone makes a lame joke that makes you feel uncomfortable, tell them.
Giving up my iPhone was one of the best things for my dread
Repetitive sounds and broadcasts are my fave for calming me down and taking me back to a place where I can focus on positives and not my shortcomings.
on purple umbrella days, i do nothing but each rich tea biscuits and cry in #mycalvins
It doesn’t define me and it’s not who I am - but I accept it’s something I have to live with and I embrace this in the most positive way possible.
Mostly, I'm ashamed of my feelings and I feel like I don't deserve a lot, and most of all, I expect rejection.
The universe collapses on me: l'univers s'éffondre sur moi.
There is a little balding, neurotic Jewish guy in all of us.
Over-thinking things and then sabotaging those things to justify my insecurities.